I Love You Too Much To Live.

I need you.
Lost in a sea of impossible desire,
Only you could save me, frm my internal fire.
Vague memories fading like sand grains through hands,
Each second that passes I pray God meets my demands.
Yet I know He wont, you’re gone frm me forever,
Only in my dreams do I see us once again together.
Unlike my body, my soul is broken into two,
Take care of the other half, because I know it left with you.
On many occasions the guilt suffocates me,
Once or twice I know that you’d love to save me.
Maybe you have, that’s why shadows always follow,
Unless they’re here to remind me that part of my chest is hollow.
Chances are I’ll never care for anyone as much as you,
Hard to admit, but it hurts because I put my trust in you.
Time heals my wounds, but I’ll always be scarred,
Or I’ll always be falling over wen in the dark.
Live, wherever you are, spirit, watch over me,
I need to know that mentally I’m still in your company.
Vault sealed in my mind, I’m not yet ready to move on,
Externally, not till I’ve fallen into my own tombstone.